thy escapade~

I THINK I MAYBE...LIKE YOU

2011-04-04T06:32:00.000-07:00

Ahahaha hello people!

it's been a while tak update blog.

not really into blogspot these days.ceh2.

anyway,how y'all doing?

i'm having my finals in about 2 weeks time.

gotta gear up.

ouhhh about the title?

yeahhh.i think i'm starting to like YOU..

damn it,damn YOU!

haishhh

-.-

ok?

2011-02-13T09:17:00.001-08:00

has been a while since i last updated my blog.

not much has happened i guess.

how are you fellow readers?

hope you're doing fine.

fine?is 'fine' a feeling??

i've always wondering bout that.

anyhow,my mum was admitted last night.her condition so far is still the same.

pls pray for her.she's suffering.

and ouh,me and my bestie?

yeah we're fine.

i think?...

things are not the same anymore.

sometimes i wonder whether i made the right decision to have him back.

kadang2 rasa mcm it's the wrong the decision.

sometimes not.

idk.

it's kinda sad though.but that's okay.

i'm getting over it.life doesn't stop here just because someone is not the same anymore.

let it be.

as for now,i'm having a great time with my friends,lovely biatches.

LOL.

it has been great.been through some interesting experience which i can't tell here*wink wink

so i think that's it for now.gotta scoot!test tomorrow.

ciao

getaway

2011-01-28T08:05:00.000-08:00

I'm off to Jakarta for a few days.
hope to get some peace in mind and a great time.
i'll update soon.
goodbye fellow readers!

NUMB

2011-01-21T04:25:00.000-08:00

It has been 11 days i'm living my life without you.
a lot had happened.
and most of the time,i need you the most.
but i can't find myself to go and find you like i used to do.
i was mad.
i was upset.
i was angry.
i was hurt really bad.
but now,i think i have to try and let this one go.
like i always do.
i have to fix myself.
i have to TRY and forgive you.
some ask me to go and get you back.
some ask me to stay away.
but what i want?
idk.
exhausted mcm ni.
but i can barely 'move' da.
if things were meant to end,how i wish we could end things the right way.
but you can't find it in yourself to be fair to me.
i wanted to see you for the last time.
i wanted to hear your voice for the last time.
i wanted to salam you for the very last time.
but i don't have that chance.
it is the most terrible goodbye.
i am all alone now.
yes Allah is with me.
but that's it.
while the others said they are here for me,those are just words.
it can never be the same.
they don't know how i feel.
i want to fix things.
but idk how.
maybe i should just leave it this way..

bla bla bla

2011-01-18T05:45:00.001-08:00

I NEED MY BEST FRIEND BACK!

:'(

bla bla bla

2011-01-18T05:45:00.000-08:00

I NEED MY BEST FRIEND BACK!

:'(

LONG MISERABLE DAY

2011-01-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

OMG

I AM SOO TIRED RIGHT NOW.

WHY?

BECAUSE TODAY,I'VE BEEN IN AN ACCIDENT.

THANK GOD NO ONE GOT HURT.

BUT THE CAR WRECKED.

AND I'M THE ONE BEHIND THE WHEEL.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON MY MIND THAT TIME.

SGT PENAT RIGHT NOW.

I CALLED MANY PEOPLE TADI FOR HELP.

THANK YOU FRIENDS.

BUT THEN AGAIN,EVERYONE IS MESSED UP TODAY BECAUSE OF ME.

DAMN.

GUILTY SGT.

HAIIHHH.

what's on my mind?

2011-01-12T09:41:00.000-08:00

DON'T TELL ME YOU UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL,

UNTIL YOU'VE BEEN IN THE SAME EXACT SITUATION.

I NEED TIME.

HELL A LONG TIME

TO SEAL BACK THE WOUND THAT ONCE WAS HEALED..FOR A WHILE.

whatever it is,i have to be strong.

yes,of course right now,everything seems to be so blurry.

but i know,

i'll be back on my feet.

soon.

maybe.

for now,let me be sad.

let me be mad.

let me be upset.

let me cry my heart out

let me curse

let me do stupid things.

because one day,

i am NOT gonna look back at this.

i am not gonna look back at YOU.

ohh love you,yes i still do.

xtau bila bole stop.

kau doa la aku dah x fikir pasal kau.

fuck liars

fuck broken promises

fuck false hopes

p/s:kau kejam buat aku mcm ni.

11.1.11

2011-01-11T01:08:00.000-08:00

THE DAY EVERYTHING ENDS.
THANK YOU SO MUCH
FOR BEING SO CRUEL.
THANK YOU
THANK YOU
THANK YOU

AND PLEASE,STOP STALKING ME.AND THIS IS MY FUCKING BLOG.
I CAN FUCKING BLOGGED ANYTHING I WANT.
IDK WHAT I DID BEFORE TO DESERVE THIS.
2ND TIME KENA MACAM NI.
JINX KOT.

the waiting is excruciating

2011-01-10T08:36:00.000-08:00

IDK WHAT ELSE TO DO RIGHT NOW
PENAT LAA.
PENAT KENA IGNORE LIKE THIS.
IT'S LIKE EVERYTHING I DO FALL INTO WRONG PLACES.
DON'T GIVE UP ON ME JUST YET LA.

selfish act??

2011-01-02T06:54:00.001-08:00

Yes,i am happy at the moment.

But then again,i couldn't help but knowing that,someone got hurt over my happiness.

am i selfish??

i don't know.

i don't know what to do.

to that person,idk if you're going to read this.

But please know that i never meant this to happen.

i never thought it will ended up like this.

and i definitely did not mean to hurt you.

and for that,i am truly sorry.from the bottom of my heart.

i truly am.

spreading the happiness

2011-01-01T06:51:00.000-08:00

I had the sweetest ending of 2010

and greatest beginning of 2011

I couldn't ask for more.

Thank You Allah,for blessing me with happiness.

I've been longing for this moment for quite a while.

and now finally,yes.

Welcome 2011.

i'm suck with goodbyes

2010-12-29T06:44:00.001-08:00

FAREWELL MY DEAR BESTFRIEND.

I FINALLY FOUND THE COURAGE TO LET YOU GO.

IF THAT DAY EVER COMES,I'LL BE THERE AGAIN.

TAKE CARE.

I'VE DONE EVERYTHING THAT I CAN.

NOW,WE'LL JUST LET TIME TELLS.

I LOVE YOU

LOVE YOU MAF.

Taking Chances

2010-12-26T11:27:00.000-08:00

In life,you get to choose.

To get in,or get out..

To accept,or decline..

To take,or leave..

To live,or die..

To love,or hate..

It's our life.We get to choose.But how can we know,that our choice,is the best for us?

Well,i guess you can never know until you take chances.

Life is complicated.But you also get to choose,either to make it more complicated,

or try and make it simpler.

I watched Grey's Anatomy just now.its kinda wake up call for me.

I have to give everything i could.so that in the end of the day,when i'm about to die,i will have no regrets.No regrets.No questions of what could've been.

I hope i can die peacefully,InsyaAllah..amin-

THE STORY

2010-12-05T11:43:00.000-08:00

HELLO2.you wanna know the truth?

http://hestory.wordpress.com/2010/12/05/the-story

p/s:its 3405 words

craving and pms

2010-12-02T18:58:00.000-08:00

NAK COOKIES!TOLONGLAH!CRAVING NIII.:(

This is what happens when you're having your pms.*sigh

ohh,speaking of pms,i made some research*ceh macam x pernah blaja je.

Risk factors

High caffeine intake^[4]
Stress may precipitate condition
Increasing age
History of depression
Family history
Dietary factors^[6] (Low levels of certain vitamins and minerals, particularly magnesium, manganese, and vitamin E) and also Vitamin D

no wonder la i got pms and muscle cramps and stuff.high caffeine intake.

hmm like almost everyday i had caffeine.but just a glass per day.

is that considered HIGH??

shocked state

2010-11-30T11:45:00.000-08:00

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!

25 november 2011 :)

2010-11-25T11:05:00.000-08:00

hahaha bangang

karaoke time!

us:)

and anis the photographer

syg sgt korang!and not to forget my bestie,aneq:')

such a long and tiresome day,but had lotssa fun!so here are details:

11.30am-gerak from putra

12++ pm:sampai pavi.pusing2.ate at food court

2.15pm:went for movie(me,chechi,nad,chin,cha and zai):UNSTOPPABLE

6pm:karaoke time!

9pm:balik putra,sent shaza home

11pm:makan dekat domain(me,chechi,izzah,aiman and cha)

12.30am:went back home

i was having a lot fun until the point where i had food poisoning!damn that asam laksa!i will never eat those laksa again.*sigh.worst part,it ruined my movie.i had to go out like 3 times i think and went to the toilet.siot gila ouh.i VOMIT AND MY WHOLE BODY WAS TREMBLING.well,u guys know how it feels kan bila kena food poisoning.damn.then habis movie,kene bahan dgn zai.hahah siot sangat tuu!and then,we went karaoke.well,macha and aiman have great voices.best lah.sort of like the entertainment for the day.hahah.all in all,i had great time with my darlings.SHAZA,ANIS,IZZAH,ATEN,NAD,CHECHI,HUHA,CHIN,AIMAN,MACHA AND ZAI,THAnK YOU FOR THE FUN!sayang korang especially my babes!

Avenged Sevenfold - So Far Away

2010-11-22T07:26:00.000-08:00

This song is written by my sweetheart;p BRIAN SYNYSTER GATES.Dedicated to their late drummer,JIMMY 'THE REV' SULLIVAN.Its epic.i can almost feel how they felt when they lost someone important in their lives.Hope u guys enjoy this as much as i did.;')

sugar rush!weee

2010-11-19T06:03:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA.MALAM NI JADI GILA SIKIT.

XTAU KENAPA.MAYBE TOO MUCH SUGAR CONSUMED?

idk.

HEHE TAPI BEST OUH.RASE MCM HAPPY SAJE.

NO DONT GET ME WRONG.

I DONT TAKE DRUGS IN CASE YOU'RE WONDERING.

WANI BAIIKKK.;P

KAN BEST KAN KALAU SELALU HAPPY2 CAMNI.HEE~

AND TO MY SWEET DARLINGS,IF I EVER BEING MOODY KE APE,SUAP JE

ANYTHING SUGARY.NANTI WANI JD GILE CMNI.

TAPI,U GUYS LA KENE LAYAN.TAU2?

KISS SIKIT?MUAHHH!

what should i do?

2010-11-16T10:55:00.000-08:00

WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH THIS CERTAIN PEOPLE WHO ANNOYS ME?

Its like,you are...ermm...'merimaskan'?-perhaps.

maybe you cared for me too much,that lama2 jadi kinda annoying.

and please,you have your own life and responsibilities.mend your life first.

deal with your own problems okay?

and and,dengar lah opinion orang.you ask for people's thoughts,and when they gave it to you,you simply judging how they live their life.that isn't the proper way to react lah.

if you think you cant accept other people's opinion,then dont ask for it in the 1st place la.

honestly,i think i am maturer than you are despite our age differences are quite huge.*shame on you.haihhh

WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH THE 'BANGANG' ADMINISTRATORS AT FSKM?????

Yg ni memang buat aku sakit hati.you guys wants us to represent ourselves in the best possible way right?you guys wants us to portray the real image of university students am i right?

BUT,you guys have to set a good example to us lahh.when you want to punish those who break the rules,fine.but do it fairly la.terang2 my situation is the same with that girl,and yet i'm the only one who was penalized??WHAT THE FUCK DOUCHE??!!!i waited for like 3 freaking hours,without a proper sleep,and suddenly i have to pay these bastards 50 bucks?!

walaweyh!sumpah bangang la.i really2 dont want my parents to get involve with this matter but seems like u guys dont really know how to do ur job well.fuck yew!

WHAT SHOULD I DO THIS HOLIDAY??

Online,tido,lepak2 sampai lebam!!!LOL

exam is over babeyhhhh!

2010-11-09T11:10:00.000-08:00

SALUTE!!

ITS OVER!

relieved gila weh!

hahaha.so far,i think kantoi maybe 2 papers kot.*sigh

but what to do,done already.

ahhaa ok.peeps,i want this.

POLAROID.

yes.yes.yes.

i know the trend nowadays are nikon,dslr,bla3.

but no.

i want this.

its very...hmm i cant put into words.

hahaha.

but seriously.i need to get my hands on this babe.

style kot.hehehe.

we'll see la how.*fingers crossed

tell me a suitable title for this post

2010-11-01T11:35:00.001-07:00

"SORRY FOR EVERYTHING"

hmm x susah kan nak ckp camtu?add up with sincerity,a boiling temperature pun bole cool down.

and i'm sorry too.

maybe i overreacted?idk.

tp tulah apa yg aku rasa.

and u cannot blame me.

and thank you for today.

i know you are still you.

please..

i know ppl change.but i hope its not u,

please sgt.

because i'm being reasonable,and i dont wanna fight.

so i let it go.like i used to do.

but this heart is still aching.

so untuk exam pula,2 more papers to go then i'm done!

ya Allah x sabar nye!!heeee~

c++ da lepas.lega sikit kepala.

hmmm pray for my success friends.

and yeah,i've activated my fb back for some reasons.

saya penat being miserable

another one

2010-10-30T09:57:00.001-07:00

fuck yeww!it matters lah bongok!
hah nah!khas untuk kau.huhu.yes,u are being such an asshole.why?

how stupid i am for thinking that u still care for me when u obviously dont.

haiihh sedih2.xperlulah kot nak change to this attitude kan?u said u'll never leave me?

BULLSHIT SUNGGUH LAH KAN?

ahhaa xpelah.

9th november.if u still act this way,I'M GONE FROM UR LIFE OKAY?

esok paper account.tp disebabkan ade breakdown td,cm x focus sgt wat revision tadi.haihh bila lah nak score for exam ni?

dah x nampak bayang2 swift da ni.:(

yea,who knew??

2010-10-29T03:17:00.000-07:00

YOU TOOK MY HAND

YOU SHOWED ME HOW

YOU PROMISE ME

YOU'D BE AROUND

UH-HUH

THAT'S RIGHT

I TOOK YOUR WORDS

AND I BELIEVED

IN EVERYTHING U SAID TO ME

UH-HUH THAT'S RIGHT

WHEN SOMEONE SAID 3 YEARS FROM NOW

YOU'D BE LONG GONE

I'D STAND UP AND PUNCH 'EM OUT

COZ THEY'RE ALL WRONG

I KNEW BETTER

COZ YOU SAID FOREVER AND EVER

WHO KNEW

REMEMBER WHEN WE WERE SUCH FOOLS

AND SO CONVINCED

AND JUST TOO COOL

NO NO

I WISH I COULD TOUCH YOU AGAIN

I WISH I COULD STILL CALL U FRIEND

I'D GIVE ANYTHING

WHEN SOMEONE SAID COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS NOW

FOR THEY LONG GONE

I GUESS I JUST DIDN'T KNOW HOW

I WAS ALL WRONG

THEY KNEW BETTER

STILL U SAID FOREVER

AND EVER,WHO KNEW

I KEEP U LOCKED IN MY HEAD

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

N I WONT FORGET U MY FRIEND

WHAT HAPPENED

THAT LAST KISS

I'LL CHERISH

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN

AND TIME MAKES IT HARDER

I WISH I COULD REMEMBER

BUT I KEEP YOUR MEMORY

YOU VISIT ME IN MY SLEEP

MY DARLING,WHO KNEW??

A VERY MEANINGFUL SONG TO ME~

i wish you could really see what i'm trying to tell u here.

p/s:ily and imy

have a kit kat:)

2010-10-28T06:42:00.000-07:00

one down,5 more to go.

today,i sat for my titas exam.

alhamdulillah,it went well.i just hope i can get pretty decent result.hee

tomorrow,i'll be having maths logic exam.

hhuh,i still cant find the logic of studying this subject.

but i gotta sit for it somehow.

so now i'm taking a break.

kinda exhausted.

i've deactivated my fb account for a while.

maybe when i'm done with my finals,then only i'll activate it back.

too much is happening right now.

and some of the things that i just cant take it.

so i'll avoid it as long as i can.

COUNTING DAYS TO 9TH OF NOVEMBER 2010~

not so nice la kan?

2010-10-26T12:08:00.000-07:00

very very not nice.
you are mean.
you are so mean.
how could u do this to me?
it hurts.
really2 bad.
and now,i just cant go on with this.
i'm done.
have a happy life.
just dont get hurt in the end.

short post

2010-10-24T01:06:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU

FULLSTOP.

p/s:agak stress with studies.but i'll be fine.

APE2 PUN BOLEH

2010-10-11T06:45:00.001-07:00

SEMUA ORANG PERASAN.

TERMASUKLAH KAWAN2 KAU

TP KAU JE X PERASAN2 LAGI.

KE KAU BUAT2 X PERASAN?

NAK KATE BODOH,MMG X BODOH.

NAK KATE LAMPI,PUN TIDAK.

HABIS NAK PANGGIL APE EH???

DAN KEPADA SESIAPA YG TERASE,XYAH NAK STALK AKU SGT LAA.

ADD KAT FB PUN BOLE.AKU APPROVE JE.

BUKAN AKU XKNAL KAU-.-

YEAH,POST BERBAHASA MELAYU-APE MAKSUDNYA?AKU BOLE JADI GILE SKRG NI.

4 TEST & ASSIGNMENTS BERLONGGOK.SUME NAK SETTLE DLM MINGGU NI.TLG LA HABIS CEPAT..

don't read if you don't care

2010-10-07T10:04:00.000-07:00

its 1 a.m in the morning..
i'm having difficulties to sleep lately..
idk why.if i gone to bed around 1 am,most probably i'll end up SLEEPING at 3 am or 4.then i had to wake up for my subuh.how many hours of sleep did i get?*sigh
and this week,i've been crying quite a lot actually.i put on a fake smile every now and then.
the person who used to make me laugh when i'm in the worst condition,is the one who put me through the most painful situation.and worst,that person doesn't know it.
there is nothing much i can do.i'll just let time tell and heals.and i know its gonna be damn loong.
but honey for now,i just don't feel like seeing you.it hurts you know??
and i think you can go on without me right?in fact you better off without me.its me who cant go on without you.but hey,i gotta give everything a try right?
i hope you're happy.i hope you're doing just fine.i hope you're not sick.i hope everything is okay at your home.
i just cannot get distracted with these stuff.i'm having my finals in 2 weeks time.if all i do is crying over something that you did,when can i find the time for myself to focus on my studies?
i pray to Him that He'll help through this.give me strength.pls.i need to be strong like i used to be.
i just need at least 1 person to tell me that i'm strong.that they believe in me...

to mummy and abah,have a safe trip to the Holy land.may everything goes well and smoothly.i'll keep praying for the safety for both you.

p/s:i love you,my stranger bestfriend.

the silent treatment

2010-10-04T11:44:00.000-07:00

I'm giving you the silent treatment.i'm giving you the space you want.i'm going to learn how to go by days without needing to get in touch via anything.i'm going to live my life as it is.but ,remember,

i ain't made out of stone no matter what you think

the confession

2010-10-02T22:36:00.000-07:00

It has been a while since the last post.
ok so the title says it all.
the confession.
it all starts on last thursday i think.
i fell asleep in the evening.and around 6.30 i think,
alip called me.he said kamal n bani is coming and they
asked me to gout for a movie.
at first i was kinda hesitated because the next day,i still have my classes.
but then,i really need a night out.so i asked aneq to come along.
then we went to sunway and watched wall street.
but heck i dont understand what the story is about.lol.
then afterwards,we lepak at ss7.yeah i should've known that they
would stay and teman us till the morning.thank you guys.
and so that night we had this really deep conversation.
LOVE.
yeah the L word.and somehow they persuaded me to confess something
that i've been trying really hard to hide.
especially to them.
but anyhoo,i took the risk and trust 'em.
so i told them the truth.
but not much of elaboration.haha enough la with the confession kan?
no need to know any further.and so the 3 of them had known the truth.
so i hope for 2 things right now;
i hope they wont tell anyone esp. that person in particular.
and i hope that the next time i meet them,i wont be awkward.
its kinda relieved u know when u finally tell someone outside you know?

questionsss

2010-09-21T07:59:00.000-07:00

This post is going to be quite merepek.since idk what else to do.haha-.-

just watched Vdays td for the 2nd time.i'm bored.n suddenly i was thinking..

What does being in a relationship REALLY means??

izit being with someone dat u've known in ur almost entire life,

or izit being with someone that u just met,n take the liberty of time to get to know ur partner?

what izit actually?

and i am definitely not talking about marriage lahh.

i'm refering to this 'couple' or 'dating' thingy.

what izit really about?

so,anyone who's reading this,y dun u drop ur opinion.

i would really love to know what u guys think.

ok,next question.

why does most guys;i didnt say all,

lagi pentingkan their ego or pride wtv rather than their own feelings?

u see,i have many guy friends.n most of them have this same attitude.

ok maybe they were born this way?

but that is just a lame excuse.

for instance,the guys who r in a relationship.

there are some of my frenz,who has a gf,

are afraid to express their feelings publicly i.e fb

afraid of what?of getting bashed by their buddies.

there is really nothing wrong rite to just express ur feelings.

and here's another thing,there are some guys which has a really high level

of ego,can't even say SORRY?

well,that is too much ynoe.they are too proud of themselves that

they cnt even see their own faults,admit it n apologize.

now here's smthng personal.i just experienced it yesterday.

when dat one person,who i thought out of all ppl,

shud know me better,totally ignored me when he just absolutely

ruined my night.not a single sorry,heck he didnt even bother to talk to me.

i had made myself very clear last nite dat i was upset with him,

but still no response.till today.

dont u hv the courtesy to say sorry at all??

cmon r u afraid of being vulnerable?

that is totally bullshit.

you know that u dont hv to pretend anything when u r with me.

so y do u hv to act this way?

u r starting to get under my skin ynoe.

please stop before it will gone any worst.

so i guess thats it for now.looking forward to read ur opinions.

smile:)

2010-09-15T20:22:00.000-07:00

well i've been busy lately..teettt!!of course not.i'm just lazy to update my blog.LOL.
ok,so i wont be posting or blogging much about my raya celebration because it wasnt that interesting.seriously,it was very2 dull this year.idk y.but i dun rlly care either.

on the 1st raya,we were at home je.abah had to work;or attend najib's open hse for dat matter-.-

due to boredom,me,ayen,hizami n lin went to ou n wtch mvie.

haha so much for raya celebration rite?we watched resident evil in 3d.

the next day baru blk melaka.n then bla3..u know the drill.

and then we went home.

so dat is pretty much my raya so far.hahah.no cmmnt on that.n then on tuesday,me,jim n danial teman famy to go on his 1st date with noccie kt mid.it was quite funny ynoe.LOL.it went well.didnt spent too much time though bcoz i gotta be home by 7-.-

ok n then yesterday,was a rough day for me:(

i had a fight with my mum.frankly,i dun even know y she was very angry with me.*sigh.

n then belle had gone to india last nite.thnk God i got the chance to meet her b4 she go.

thnx to famy,D n apis sbb teman smlm,

n to famy,i owe u a lot.tq for everything dear.thnx for being around.

idk what i would do wo u.i sure hope u can keep ur promise.

thnx for always putting a smile on this face when i dun even want to smile.

and all these stuff that's happening rite now,i know i'm strong enuff to face it.God wont challenge us over our capabilities.n i know i'm capable of handling this..

-.-

2010-09-04T01:07:00.000-07:00

2 posts in 1 day?wow i seriously hv nothing to do.LOL.but i really want to blog about this given that i didnt even mention bout 'this' in the previous blog.well maybe i'm just scared?idk.

ok,here goes.last nite,siv borak with me.n he asked me bout,well that particular person.*sigh.

and i just told him,we r just like what we hv always been.n siv ckp,i'm too slow.durh!wth am i supposed to do??i just couldnt risk it all.i'm not that strong i guess.he told me to 'gamble' a bit.

but i'm just too scared.then he started to tell bout his story bla bla bla.yeah i get it.u've been in the same situation.but seriously dude,u were like friends with her for just 3 years i guess.me?waaayyy longer than yours.so its different.n u're a guy.i'm not.so i've been thinking.and MAYBE,just maybe,its time for me to let him go?huhh.i know it damn well that is going to be effing hard n i probably cnt get over him at all.but i hv to try rite?(like i never did that b4=.=)

but really,i have to.bcoz it really hurts..and i hv to care less about him n try not to be too attached to him.yeah,i NEED to do that...

zzz

2010-09-03T14:42:00.000-07:00

I LOVE SLEEPING!

why?because when i'm asleep,i dun have to think about anything.

my brain could get the rest it needs.and so does my heart-from the ache.

and when i'm asleep,i'll have the chance to dream of the impossible given how ridiculous that dream might be.i just doesnt have to think about my problems or anything.

and lately,my bedtime is the time that i look forward everyday.

so,i'm home now.for raya celebration.well,i'm not really into it.i just didnt get the vibes,yet.and after raya,about a month or so,i'll be having my finals.when i come to think of it,how time passed us so fast that we didnt even notice.or at least i didnt.there's just so much to do,so little time.but whatever it is,i'm really glad i'm home.

and now,i shall blog-just briefly-about the week i had;

30th august 2010;

i got swollen eyelids.seriously i have no idea how i got it.the doctor said it is most prolly bcoz of allergies*even he didnt know y.got mc for a day
missed my csc401 quiz.but lucky me,the lecturer is nice enough.
spent merdeka nite ALONE in my room watching gg.pathetic huh?i know.even all my roomates went out dat nite-.-

31st august 2010;

aneq came around 3pm to pick me anis up.i drove to bangi to pick up shaza n went to ukm
met luqmal n nisa.lepak2 at her room while anis n luqmal went out to 'bandar'.LOL.we kept on changing our plans while waiting for em.sumpah lwk sgt that time.
break fast at the cafe.a few kuih keling,cempedak goreng,lemang,drinks,and we were done.
drove to ts.sampai sesat2 at kl.luckily,it wasnt that hard to find ts.thx for the help,D and famy.
kene saman bcoz parked the car beside the yellow line.huh great=.=
drove bck to s.alam n went to kamal's corner.
somehow oddly,shaza lost 1 of her flip flops IN THE CAR!how is dat even possible?LOL.and it was viva for crying out loud!hahaha-sorry babe,da ramai pun tau;p
shisha;)-sorry to anis too dat u got headache dat nite.wont shisha when u're around da.

1st sept 2010

after isyak,drove to the curve to redeem out mvie tckets for step up 3d:)
went to rasta(ohh i miss dat place) teman aneq beli handbags.such a downer bcause i'm totally broke and cnt buy any-.-
went bck to curve for the mvie.enjoyed it.it wasnt that bad.ok la.nut the storyline is cliche.but the coreography,the best!and i love you MOOSE ALEXANDER!-reminds me of someone,or at least i wish they were the same*sigh
drove to kl.konon nak pegi lookout point at ampang.got lost in kl for almost 2 hours.then only we found it.thx to caja for giving the direction n teman me when everyone else were asleep.-.-
the view was a shiznit.but i think it will be a lot better if we waited for sunrise.but the time wasnt in favour.
went for sahur.idk how my finger tersepit kat pintu kereta(dayummm dat hurts!)
drove bck to s.alam.

2nd sept 2010

accidentally dozed off till i missed my acc class.
took my csc401 quiz.Alhamdulillah it went well.
went ss2 to buke puase with aten n huha.and to clbr8 her belated bday.

3rd sept 2010

took maths logic quiz;totally fucked that one up.bummer.
went home:)

so that pretty much sums up my week.except for weekends.i'll stop now.toodles

please!!!!!!

2010-08-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

http://junkonline.net/articles/3071-Paramore-Live-in-KL-19-Oct

OMG!yes,read rIght everyone.

paramore is coming here!!!!

plz i wanna go!!!

but hell,the date is close to My finals.gosh!

F lah!

serIous shit i NEED to go to dz concert wehhh.huh

my finalS will starts on 25th oct(famy's bday).

so its like a week b4 my exam Starts.

can i just go,please??;(

alrite,enough about paramore for now.i went shopping todaY.with ayen n hizami.got 2 pairs of jeans n baju.still thinking of adding mOre.heheh.we'll see first lah.

n including today,it has been 2 days i havent spoken to him.idk where has he been.or what he is Up to.i'm missing him already.-.-

PATHETIC.yes i know.

n the pain,yup still there..

got no words to say

2010-08-23T22:03:00.000-07:00

i didn't wake up for sahur this morning

i wake up earlier than i should just because nak settle ptptn

but then,something happened.

last2,abah said,"dah org tu x nk accept,u apply next sem jelah",,

whattt?????

haiyooo sumpah penat dowh!!

urrggh!dah la mmg dpt sikit.hisshh.

dah la,i'm not gonna curse anyone on this blog.

i'm fasting-without sahur.running out of energy

wrong place,wrong time

2010-08-23T09:04:00.001-07:00

i am just so mad,

at myself,,

why?

for getting carried away,

for letting myself overwhelmed by jelousy,,

this is very stupid,,

and suddenly everything that i do tonite,goes wrong.

teh tarik that i made tasted not more than just plain water,,

my blackforest melted-pdhal i placed it at the same place like b4,,

the weather is just too hot tonight,how i wish i could just take of my tee,,

i forgot to take my lecturer's signature as witness for ptptn which i have to submit tomorrow,,

n stop there;ptptn which i only gonna get freaking 4800 bucks for 3 effing years!

and here is the main reason y i feel so messed up;

YOU,yes all i want is for u to be happy,for u to 4get about the past n do wtv it takes to accomplish dat.but i know better.for u to be happy dat way,u hv to move on.n to move on,u hv to find someone else despite how far she is.i know u like her very much..

so,like what i ALWAYS do for u,i'll do wtv it takes to make it work if u want to.

but there is always a part of me,no,not a part.lotssa part that hurting watching u n some other person.lantak lah nk ckp aku jiwang ke hape,i dont giv a fuck.

untill when do i have to suffer like diz??if it is someone else,i will be gone from ur life looong time ago.but its YOU.even u know i cnt make it wo u.so i hv to stay.n i need u to stay.well yeah i know u wont go anywhere.nak x nak,i have to watch u with someone else.coz i cnt bare to see u suffer like the other nite.just pray dat i'm strong enuff to go thru diz.i'm strong enuff to let u be hppy.i'm strong enuff to not get jelous.n i'm strong enuff to let u go 1 day..

E to the M to the O

2010-08-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

TIRED

SLEEPY

NUMB

STRESSED

HEADACHE

PISSED OFF

hmm bile post something new je,it must be something emo.y haa?bcoz there's just too much drama-.-

wtf?LOL.i just got bck to my house tday when i was supposed to go bck on friday.y?bcoz i got test on programming sat morning.so kne stay bck lah kan.and so i studied lah for my test ni since i'm not so good with c++.n i thot cm nk tdo quite awl la bcoz after sahur,x nak tdo blk.so around 2 smthing tu,i wanna go to bed dah when sddnly someone called me.dont hv to mention la sape.but he has a prob.so i just listened to his rambling.tup2 da kol 3.i was like..what??dude i got test tomorrow!!den only we got off the fon.and then 5 am i woke up blk sahur n study till 8.n then i sat for the test

after tu terus abah dtg to pick me up.blk2 je pun x tdo terus.settle kan probs aneq.den bru dpt tdo.pstu have to bgn again coz aunty nk dtg.hv to help mummy masak.fuhh!sumpah penat.

TOO MUCH

2010-08-20T01:05:00.000-07:00

I just couldn't put it into words.

There's just too much affections.

i've never felt like this.

YOU,

please be happy.

i just can't bare to see u torchuring urself like this.

this is not like u.

When u told me last night,i feel like crying.

because its just too much even for you.

although its not me who has to go through it,

i promise u,i'll be by ur side the whole time.

p/s;i just can't find myself some time to write a blog for my beloved mate,key.i am so sorry.i got caught up with tests n quizzes n stuff.again,happy bday

ohh c++ !

2010-08-16T00:32:00.000-07:00

currently in pn hani's class.in the lab precisely.ok,i am quite pissed off rite now.
we,and i really meant all of us,had NO IDEA WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO!
how can we know?she just entered the class, asked us to log in to i-learn,download the crap,and said"u can try to do exercise"
weh wtf weh?!!and then she just sit in front of her pc....n now she already left us.
this is bull.seriously..(oh,mind the vulgar words used.sorry.but this is my blog.i can say wtv i want)

and so here i am blogging while waiting for my project to be compiled.*sigh

so last nite,i decided to take a time off from fb*ceh mcm ape je pulak.
why?bcoz...i had these ridiculous feelings when i'm fb-ing.u see,i have 2 compulsory profile that i have to check on evrytime i'm on9.sounds stupid?yeah i know but i cant help it.LOL.and sometimes,i found some stuff that can make me laughing my ass off.but MOST of the time,i'll end up hurt.pathetic?yeap.i wont deny that.so i guess for this week,i'm gonna spare my heart the aching and just ignore everything.for a while la.haha.

p/s;tomorrow baru nak start fasting.heheee

miserable at best

2010-08-13T03:33:00.000-07:00

irony isn't it?how a person can be your strength and weakness in the same time

yup,you are my strength.but you are also my ultimate weakness.i've reach the point where everything u do in ur life,affects me.how is that even possible??
ppl always telling me to just be bold and tell u the truth.but no.i won't.because LOSING you would be the most painful thing that will ever happen to me.

How can i be so sure?because i almost lose you once.and the heart is fragile enough to bare the pain.dah cukup2 lah tu.so i guess this time,it is better left unsaid.

But wait,and now there is a newcomer in my life.we had known each other for quite some time now.everything just ok between us.but there is something about him...
and i can't figure out what it is yet.but i can say that this person makes me anxious.
(whattt laaa??)LOL.

31st july-1st august '10

ASSIGNMENTSSSSSS

2010-07-30T03:47:00.000-07:00

CTU 551

CSC 401

ACC 418

QMT 400

MONDAY-3 QUIZZES;MAT422,ACC418,QMT400
1 TEST;CSC415

TUESDAY-PRESENTATION CSC401

AND THE LIST GOES ON...

URGHH!

GILE KE APE?

WAN NUR NABILAH WAN ARIFFIN

2010-07-27T23:48:00.000-07:00

Belle Ariffin oooh..ye ke?? mne tau kan org tu ade xtra..hahah
nva mind....btw,yesterday i got call from usm n dpt medic india s...n i think im going
Yesterday at 2:49pm · LikeUnlike

omg!!!belle is going to india.ya Allah sedih nye!!!seriously i was sooo shocked and very2 sad that i cried exactly like i did when i found out famy is leaving for uitm dulu.its hard enough rite now that she is in kelantan and then i found out that she's going to india???

i was so taken aback that i didnt even know what to say.I BEGGED HER NOT TO GO.

i begged her gile2 aa.if i could,i would do anything to make her stay.sumpah sedih gile.

it has been a rough week for me with so many things happened.and now this??

but wtv happens pun,even if i really2 dont want her to go,i have to think what's best for her.and this might be the best apportunity for her.and so i'll accept the fact that she's leaving and just pray for her safety there.

and to you b,

i'm going to miss you gle vavi laa.seriouslyyy.do take care of urself.and make sure u keep ur promise eh?ym dgn s taw?give me all the updates.and u still havent tell me bout dat guy yet.heee.omg sumpah sedih sgt rite now but i'm done crying.tired already.haiihhh.

i think dats all for now.this post is specially made for you.

xoxo

uitm shah alam

2010-07-23T06:31:00.000-07:00

27th June 2010 was my first day in uitm.i was quite thrilled for this new experience.
Aneq got into the same campus with me again.yeah,bestfriends.but sadly,famy is not around da.he got into um.good for him.u wont be stuck in there like kat matrik dulu kan syg?LOL.
Honestly,i was a bit scared ynoe.knowing dat i cant see him if i hav a problem or anything makes me unsettled.what would i do without him?tulaaa.i'm so used having him around,always got my back kat matrik dulu.now mcm lost sikit.but its okay:)

and then,kat sini i hang out with anis,nisa,shaza n aten.my friends back at kmm dulu.ade jugak a few other kmm-ians kt situ jugak.just for almost a month,we had a really great time together.seriously.but now,nisa got an offer to ukm.pursuing in her 2nd choice punye course.we were so sad knowing dat she will leave us but in the same time glad laa ething turned out well for her.u tc k nisa?

i am taking degree in information system engineering.it was my 1st choice time apply upu dulu.Alhamdulillah i got accepted.though when i was in kmm dulu,it didnt turned out like what i expected,but its ok.everything happens for a reason.n i know God knows better and what's best for me.and now,i'm gonna do my very best to get great results and insyaAllah be a better person.

and i join silat gayung again.i love it!!best sgt.cikgu sgt sporting and funny.the seniors are okay.the guys r cute;p
on top of it,i'm really glad i got the chance to continue my silat,my passion:)

so i think dats pretty much updates in my life for now.will be continued...

back on track!

2010-07-23T02:22:00.001-07:00

heyya fellas!

BACK TO BLOGGING...

gotta lots of catching up,but i'll update later.maybe tonight ke.

waiting for yan to pick me up.heading back to putra.

THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME:)

tell me this is not happening!

2009-07-31T11:09:00.000-07:00

This is LIFE i guess..
i'm used to the quote "ppl alwez leave"..
ok fine,not all..but ade gak kn?
its okay..REALLY..-ok,i'm bluffing..
so i nvr told this to any1.i just kept it to myself.n hell yeah it hurts.
YOU.yes YOU.YOU know who YOU r.i dun hv to mention ur name here..
wut u did to me,it hurts.BADLY i shud say.YOU leave me.YOU forgot bout me.how could YOU??
i was sooo sad that i cant even say anything.but thnx.thank YOU for realizing dat it is ur fault.
i've tried so hard to keep us together.i went thru a lot of things n i needed YOU more than ever but YOU weren't there..i know dat things btween us can nvr be the same..but we can hv smthng diff rite?n plz..out of all ppl,YOU should know me better.. YOU cannot expect me to say "ITS OKAY".
dude criuz shit its not okay.YOU wantt me to give YOU a 2nd chance?fine.take it.but truth be told,i can't trust in ur words anymore hun.i'm sorry..YOU can do wutever YOU want.if YOU need me,i'm alwez here.i never go anywhere.its YOU who leave.now dat YOU've come bck,
yes i'm glad but things can never be the same...

Now I'M APOLOGIZING..
FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO FORGIVE YOU EASILY THIS TIME..
FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO SAY ''ITS OKAY.YOU DUN HAVE TO WORRY''
AND FOR STOP TRYING...

i missed YOU

Time heals..

2009-07-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

ok people..
thnx fr ur concern..
but hey,i'm a normal person ohkay..
so plz..dun expect to me to forget bout dat shyt easily.i need tyme..

F.U.C.K

2009-07-21T07:18:00.000-07:00

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU

FUCK YOU

BASTARD!!

now i know y ppl hate u asshole!!ko nk condemned2 org,tgk diri sndri dulu la bai!janji melayu sial ko neyh!sumpah ak baran sial ngn ko lancau

fin.

25th june 09

2009-07-19T05:43:00.000-07:00

yeah i noe.it's almost a month ago but hey,i dun rlly hv the tyme nk upd8 my blog ouhkay?lyfe in KMM is super duper bz doww!lyke criuzly.fr those yg stdy in mtrik,ynoe hw it feels ryte?so here r some pics on dat nyte~

we laugh n cry together~

u guys make it worth the while

aizat qaliz;thnx for the song n lunch dear

ammar fahmi;superb bestie!ow yeah,ilyt =p

syuk;=)

i dun really hv a cake on my bday,but i got muffins =).lol.but x de pics ah..n the guys gave me a really2 cute present which really2 sweet of em.thnx!
n to the gurls,thnx fr planning diz up.n for inviting him;dats REALLY2 thoughtful.hee.as for the uia clan,(hahaha.mcm ape je).thnx fr the cards.sgt cute.hee.n i miss u guys too-key n ry esp-...miss geyl mkn sushi ngn korunk!hehe..
all n all,i had a blast on my bday.

HAKIMI

2009-05-07T06:13:00.000-07:00

hahah!the title says it all rite?hee~thnk god he will never read diz.ok so ystrday we spend tyme tgther..snce i'm going to mtrx da kn nnti..so tkot x smpat nk hngout sme2.we went to alamanda je.cuz i cn only go out aftr 2 o clock..which bgos sgt lah tu cuz kol 1.30 bru dye bgn.bengong tol.around 2 i went to pick him up.ngade2 je nak suh aku drive jgak.fine lahh..went to his house..mama x de.keje.so dye je ade kt umah.den g bnk jp.dye kuar kan duet..i was flattered lah cuz i'm the fers prson yg dye blnje gune gaji dye tuh..lol.den we headed to almnda.smpai2 je,lpr plak.hahah.but we went to the cinema 1st.bought tckets for uninvited ..nk jgak tgk cte hntu kn?hahah.then we went outside.lpak2..borak2 smpai 1 point,ckp psl marriage.hahah.bodo2 je.then jmpe padgie n bf dye-f5 diz yer.hahah.nk sebut gk tuh..tp masing2 wt muke kerek je.poyo tol.i dun care.3.30 msok tgk mvie...ok,cte tu x seram pown.n i was sleepy.smpat lak tdo jp.hahah.baran je c kimie tuh.well,da x seram,nk wt cne?da abes cte tuh,sliper dye lak ilang..mrepek sungguh!jmpe under 3 seats away form seat dye.tah pape tol.den kami jln2 kt prkson lak.usha headfon.dye nk blnje da tuh,but x de yg ley gune kt my ipod.bodo laaa...melepas!!jmpe anas..suda maken bulat!hee~continue jln2..kcau2 zam keje kt tl.hahah.den dye beli famous amos pulak..my fav cookies.da dkt kol 6.strt bosan.gerak blk.tym nk kuar kn kete tuh,i asked him to drive.at least smpai kua from prking tu cuz fobia lah lnggar tiang!hahah.tp dye x nak.suro gk ak drve.dye ajar.poyo lagi.fine lahh..thnk god i didnt do anything embarassing tyme tuh.heheh.in the car...hurm,nvm.x yh cte la.LOL.anta dye g p11 sbb nk tgk bdk2 men bola,tp x jmpe lak.sngal2 je.den i drove to p9.blok 3.tggu nenek.he asked me nak air x?of course lah nak.dye da sumbat brpe byk cookies dlm mulut ak tym tu.hahah.den dye kuar g belikan.(gentleman abes r tuh.hahah).den nenek smpai.so dye pn nk blah da..kt luar kete,dye ckp cmni.."take care k?luv u.."dangg!!!y did u say dat???stared rite into my eyes lak tuh!batak je.i know i'm blushing tym tuh.lol.wtv lah.den ak pn blah..

okey,aku kuarkan duet 2 bucks je smlm.byr parking.the rest,dye blanje..now my point is,if this hppen few months ago,i'll be screaming my lungs out.but now,nope.happy,yes.of course.but not like b4.i do realize now,he's not my edward.
lol.so yeah,i can proudly say dat i'm not affected at all by wut he said ystrday.i'm completely over him.n i'm really2 glad dat i did.thot nk upload our pics but x leh lak.tah ape prob tah.so nxt tyme lah.

looong time~

2009-05-01T08:49:00.000-07:00

whoaa!felt like yers snce the last tyme i posted a blog..tp mmg lame pn kn?mls lahh.hahah..but tonite rse cm x wt pape..so i wanna write smthing to get it out of my chest...

1)tday they announced upu..i got kt umt.perikanan.wtf??ko pk ak nk jd nelayan pe?lol..yeah2 i noe..bkn jd nelayan pn if amek dat course..so i guess now i'm going to mtrx mlake jelah..since i turned down offer from unikl tuh.n i duno whether ni kbetulan or pape but aneq pn sme mtrx gk.uhuh.rose pn.so like jd cm high skool blk..n famy pn goin to the sme mtrx.oh hell yeah!going to b a lot of 'fun' i think..mcm sums up school life ak blk.but it doesnt matter pn actlyy..m not going to repeat the same bloody mstake.m going to redeem myself nnti..just keep my fingers crossed~

2)last sundae,rose came over to my hse.i was rlly2 hppy to finally meet her.last tym korng jmpe was las yer la.on december.hahah.at last ko trun kl gk kn rose?we had fun la during her stay.g shopping2,tgk mvie..hahah.kt pump station.idk hw to isi mnyak.pathetic aite?yeah i noe.tp x pe.x ksh pown.smpai2 kt petronas tuh,wt muke cnfdent je nk isi mnyak.hahah.seb baek lpas.ok2...here's the tricky part..i think i've been holding dis for a really2 long time for the sake of my beloved fren but i think its tyme for me to let it out.plus dis is my blog.i can write wtv shit i want.
i FUCKING HATE MUHAMMAD SHAZMEER MAD DIAH!!
there u go..i'm sori rose.i noe its hard fr u n i noe wut u r going thru rite now.if u hppen to read diz,i'm sori.criuzly,slame ak idop r,ak x nah jmpe jntan sial mcm dye ni tw x?!!pigheaded.sumpah r.dhla bodo thp sial!urghh!!i could go on n on cursing him but i noe it wont do any good..i have given u too many chnces to chnge urself.i thot i was rite by assuming dat u can chnge..but i was cmpletely wrong.COMPLETELY.when u told me u needed tyme to chnge urself,i gv u tyme.plenty of tyme.n i trusted u.but aku mmg bodo r for thinking dat ko leh berubah.mmg bodo r aku caye org mcm kaw neh.criuzly,u shud get a new hobby r.hobby ko kan ske cari psl n maki org tbe2 en?if u wanna survive in diz world,u better get a new hobby lah dude.stoplah messing around wif ppl's life.kaw ck ko x nah nyusahkan idop aku kn?think again lah jntan x sedar diri.pikir blk btol2 b4 ko nk ckp pape ngn aku.BODOH!!will b my pleasure to cut u outta my life starting from now on ok?~

3)

erm got a prob?yess..i am obsess with twilight saga.yup!u got it rite.i dun care wut ever crap u wanna say.i could go on n on reading these novels over n over again.heheh.special thanks to chatey for giving me breaking dawn.SUPERB mayn!sumpah bestt..n to chzk.for eclipse.syg kaw la weh..tho x dpt2 lg.tp x pe.aku taw ko da belikan.heheh.now the cast r shooting for the next sequel- which will be in premiere on 20th nov 09.sumpah i cnt wait!!lemme tell u smthing.ble part edward leaving bella in the book,I CRIED.yes.no doubt weh.gle emo sial aku neh.but its true.lol.i ct help it la wehh.hahah.n now rose lak da terinfluence ngn aku.pdn muke kaw.but hey,best pe kan?hahah.dun deny it cuz its true.

4)me+abah=AWKWARD.yupp.well for those yg taw my family pnye story kn,u guys noe how i was with my parents.so apparently,l8ly ni i tried to spend more tym wif my fmly.i tried to put aside my so called ego n chnge my attitude.n for sum reason,sgt2 awkward.ok,there was diz one nite,all of us-xcept for ayen lah-went to kajang mkn sate.durh!then mummy,hzq n i ordered air klape.i thot dye ltak dlm gelas.kindly tlg korekkan isi klape tuh.but then dye bg tros sebijik klape tu.i was like...ok,dis is going to b bad.hahah.criuz weyh.ak x nah lpas nk korek isi klape.then aftr abes mkn sate,i strted to drink n attempted to korek isi klape tu.n ouh yeah!disaster.uh-oh.hahah.basah bju aku wey.tp x horror sgt ah.sddnly,ABAH ckp"bak cni sket.mnum sorang je!"heheh.i gave it to him larh who sat beside me.yarh,double awkward.so dye pn mnum.i watched the tv.n after a while,aku pikir.amboii byk nye abah mnum?hahah.den abah bg blk klape tu.n then..hahah..i knew wuts going on.abah tlg korekkan isi klape tu..hihihihi.blushing kt c2 gak.tp dye x nmpak ah.hurm.. duno wut to say..tpu lah if i said i was ot flattered kan?i miss those days..well,nuthing much i cn do f i keep on regretting the past rite?life must go on~

dats pretty much it lah for now..byk lg but da mls nak type.so l8er.

sore~

2009-03-21T07:54:00.000-07:00

urgghhh!!i'm so sick of diz..da 2 mlm da..the pain is still there..did evrything(except went to the doc)but it wont work..huh,fed up lah cmnii..i told mummy but she doesnt seem to care.heh,nvm2.dun need it pon.i can stand on my own.abah is coming bck home tomorrow..things r still awkward btween us..idk for hw long..n ouh yea,l8ly nihh,i seem to hv lost all my feelings n even my heart.idk y but i just dun care.i dun care if no one texted me or talk to me..i just dun..well,i told diz to HER,but nevertheless,she's also doesnt seem to care kott..cuz the nxt day nye when i asked her,she totally forgot..ouh lantak lah..i dun gv a damn..n to my frenz out there,if u just dun care bout me anymore,its ok.really.fine by me.just dun bloddy pretend lah dat u r cncern bout me..u disgusted me..whteverlahh..i'm soo done wif all these stuff;the fights n all..dat is sooo hgh school..i'm taking the highway.let it be.just do wut u wanna do.if u need me,i'll still be here..if u dun,its ok..

same goes to HIM,if u x prasan lah kn,things btween us da laen da rite now.i noe u're bz wif ur work n all...but hey,its ok..i'm gonna pass this phase..frenz come n go rite..xpe2..i dun mind..i'm rdy to build my new life even if i hav to erase all those memories.its ok.its hard but i'll do it if i hv to..i think dats it for now kot..the pain da dtg blk.siot jerh..l8er~

smother me

2009-03-14T09:06:00.000-07:00

Used - Smother Me lyrics

The Used Smother Me 

Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Surely you can take some comfort
Knowing that you're mine
Just hold me tight, lay by my side
And let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
My days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?

Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own (leaves me all alone)
Hold me too tight stay by my side
And let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time(all the time)

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
My days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?(4X- smother me)

When I'm alone time goes so slow
I need you here with me
And how my mistakes have made
Your heart break
Still I need you here with me
So Baby I’m, Baby I'm here

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?(don’t let me be alone)

Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
And Smother me(smother me)
Warm and alive I'm all over you
Would you smother me?(3X smother me)
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
All the time
Let me be the one who calls you baby
the one who calls you baby.



Lyrics | Used lyrics - Smother Me lyrics

ouh i love diz song!!x bes sgt but the words r sooo deep!sumpah wey..rse cm nak nnges pon ade..

march12 2009

2009-03-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

Cmonlaa.u guyz noe wut day it is rite??fers of all,congrats to those who achieved tremendous results.u guyz did a very gud job.to gladiators~i'm proud lah wey.(dgn muke x malu nye,tp btolla.i'm proud).gladys rise again.haha.wtv.

6.40 am,i woke up for subuh.then i got a msg from zakiah bout our overall results.i did not really believe in it at fers.i showed it to my mum,she said"dun put ur hope too high".i was like....ouwkaayyy..i wasnt pon.at all but when she said like dat...huh,cm bg sign jerh.ok2.it turned out she really did checked my result earlier..around 7.30 am,she texted me.she asked whether i wanna noe my result or not..well,i said no.i wanna go n find out myself.then i got up n siap2 ah..around 9 cmtu strt gerak kuar from umah with bju kurung n heels-wtf?? g la naek erl to bndr tsk sltn.waited for chzk tp she was late plak.then suddenly i terpikir.cnfirmlah my result horror ni.y dun i just ask my mum now so dat i wont breakdown kt coll nnti.so i txted her.asked bout my rsult lah.then she called.dye tny sure ke nk taw?i ckpla yes i wanna noe.then dye ckp,x pyhla.u tgk sndri nnti.oookaaay!cnfirm rsult horror!ouff..i hung up.chzk still x smpai.so i gerak ngn dya,nana,ainur,diyana,hana.in the kmuter,bley lak wat kecoh.LOL.tkcians mmg x ley get tgther lah.cnfirm kecoh!its the truth!hehs.then ble smpai srmban,nmpak lak paah,babe ngn ain.LOL.in the same train but laen2 gerabak-izit?..hopped on a cab n g coll.when we arrived,rsult x kuar lagi.rmaii gak yg turned up.ouhkaayy.pretty scary.around 11.45,sume msok hall.en anuar announce overall rsult.whoaa!bes lah tyme tu.i'm hepi for my btch.then its time.huhuhu.x ley bla dow my clss tchers.tyme nk bg rsult tu,both wat muke xcited n ckp cngrts.i was like,eh2,bia btol dorang ni?tpu la kn tyme if i say x xcited.durh!!dorang r wt muke cmtu.skali tgk...ahaa...stop wtv u r thinking-i wont tell u my rsult.haha.then lpak kt kntin dgn deq,cikin n ewa..borak2..then my mum suro call my dad.uhuh.call jela.fuuhh!!pedih siott dgr dye ckp!!!l8er,key dtg.ajak blk ngn dye.ikot jelah.jmpe2 sume org..then gerak g almnda...

okayh,diz part best.hahaha.dgn x sedar diri rsult horror nye,we headed to scret recipe sbb kami LAPAR.LOL.i ordered lasagna n frosty lemon tea.key pon order air same tp dye nye food xtra sket.hahaha.key kebulur!while waiting,ktorng borak2.n then the waiter dtg n bg keropok.we were like...wut??kite order ke?hahahaha!!gle x ley bla dowh!skali tgk org kt luar pn ade gk.hihihi.n then the waiter tuh ble da bg our meal,bley lak nk terjtuh sbb terkena kerusi!dammit!aku x tahan nk gelak doww tyme tu!!adoiii.den melantaklah smpai x ingat dunie..around 6 cmtu gerak g bus stop tggu bus..lame tol bus nk dtg.skt ati jer.n then hujan plak..yeah,wut a day huh?i had no choice,call my cuzin to pick us up.then anta key g sntral.otw bck,abg chik said..mummy ko blk2 je mrh2 doww...okay....ak da strt nk nnges da dat tyme.

smpai umah,i had a long hot shower..pnat lah wey.solat,bce yassin jp.dhla ngntok.then i slept jup.8.30,hzq knocked on my door.ngn muke mamai nye,i opened the door.gr8,mummy pggl aku..ok2.g dok kt dye..i thot..huh,x yh tawla.she was like a totally diff person td.it hurts really2 bad weh..from the look of her eyes,she's definitely embarassed of me.okay,u hv the rite to b upset but criuzly,do u hv to say those things to me??at diz very moment??i nedded my mum the most to support..help me to get thru diz,guide me..n yet..u just...if it was abah,i can terime lah bcoz dye mmg cmtu.but its u.bkn nk ckp apela,abg got worst than me b4,u x mrh cmni pon?y???or do u really hate me dat much???!sumpah it hurts..still does..key;btolla.gelak cm org ile ptg td,mlm ak nnges non-stop.truth be told,i deserve diz.i noe.my fault,org laen x slh pon.i noe dat.but rlly,i need my fmly n frenz to support me..cuz i completely lost rite now..idk,idk,idk..nk rase cm loser pon,x worth it gk.i need a person to tell me dat evrything's gonna be alryte..dat i can make them proud..pull me bck to the ground...

high on caffeine

2009-03-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

When i laugh...

HE will say dat he loves to hear me laughing n laugh wif me

When i cry...

HE will wipe away my tears n pull me in his arm n say"eyeliner u da ruined.mata u cm hantu.LOL"

When i'm cold...

HE will take of his jacket n put it on me

When we went for a movie...

HE will order popcorn n mineral water just like the way i like it

When one of my fav songs is on the radio...

HE will call me on the fon n we'll listen to it together

When he wants to take me out..

HE will tell my parents first

When i'm running out of credit...

HE will call me

When i'm bored...

HE will call me just to say that he loves me

When we spend time together...

HE will hand over his phone to me

When it is my birthday...

HE will burn a cd dat has all of our songs in it as my bday gift

When i finished working...

HE will wait outside for me

if he sings

HE will write a song about us

if he plays football

HE will bring me along in every match

if he wants to say goodbye

HE will kiss me on the forehead

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

HE will try to get to know all of my friends

HE will keep in touch with my brothers

HE will let me hangout with his siblings

HE will let me in all the way thru

HE will wake me up in the morning for subuh

HE will order french chicken for me if we eat at burger king

HE will bring me to kinokuniya if we go to klcc

HE will make an album of our pics

HE will take me for horse riding;wee~

hahaha...it's 3 am in the morning..nilah akibatnye terlbey caffeine,terhasillah crap di atas..no2.its not a crap actually.its true.but HE x wujud..yet.hope dat i'll meet HIM one day..bodo laa...i cant sleep!otak pon da jammed rite now..spm result da nak kua..now,truth be told,i'm not really scared.in fact,i'm not feeling anything..huh??y?idk..but better diz way.pnat otak cuak2 neh.

ok dats all i guess..no idea da.taa~

THEM <33

2009-03-09T00:10:00.000-07:00

Salam to all..diz post is made for those who stood by me thru thick n thin.a way for me to say thanks n how much i appreci8 u guys in my lyfe.i cant say diz evryday but i need u guys to noe.so here goes~

AYEN;my bro.he annoyed me like hell!-dats wut brothers do ryte?LOL.but he's the one dat alwez got my bck wherever i'm in trouble.well,he's not the best brother in the world BUT he is my bro!dats enuff for me.cudnt ask for more.we've been thru a lot kn??esp when facing mummy n abah when either one of us pissed em off.haha.dude,i heart u~

ANEQ;luv her till my very last breath.start rpt ngn dye tyme f2..in f3,we had some issues rite?but we made it thru.deskie dye tyme f4..ade issue jgak on dat part.LOL.we survived thru the screamings,glarings,tears n all..thnk God x de bitch slap larh.rmmber dat nyte?kt koridor klas 5c?i almost throw the bracelet u gave me for my bday tp nsb baek key ade kt c2.LOL.we've been thru a lot but dat wut makes us NOW.i think evry year kite ade prob kn??when i think bck,funny la weh.hahaha.aku ingat agi dya salu kene kan aku ngn ko en?bodo jerh.thnks for alwez been there for me.

KEY;ahaha..you;eye cntct?hw cn i 4get dat?thnx for being such a wnderful fren to me.my scret keeper..best deskie!cherish year 06.a wnderful year..rmmber my pncil box??name dye 'jadmie'.wth??LOL.jim+admie.we went thru pmr tgether.last min nye pulun.hahaha.ingat lg tyme f4,we had a fight.mlm BADA.how cn i 4get dat?sume psl misunderstanding.bodo btol.then balek dorm,i threw away mr I n our pic dat u gave me for my bday.wut is wrong wif me?nk buang sume bday gifts ke?hahaha.video making ngn chatt.kene naek stage lak pn tengku suro.escape class knon nk wat vdeo.hahaha.den tyme f5,x same class.but we managed to stay close.a lot of things dat we shared.den so-called-bday party ak last yer.all the drama..tepi surau.mghrib tah ke mane2 tah.adoii!anjal sejarah kt prefects room.ko wat ak gelak cm org gile!seb baek pn yusma.hahaha.x wat pon essay-ko nye ilang plak.hahaha.dude,i can go on n on bout us.criuzly.byk gile bnde.wtv it is;THANX LOVE.

CHATT;chatey neh,rpt ngn dye tyme f3.same wktu ngn key,rose n ry.mkn2 maggi kt wakaf.rmmber ko kne tpu ngn ry n rose bowt the necklace??hahaha.siot jerh.went thru pmr tgther gak.skali naek f4,we were in diff class.down hell tyme tu!ko sorang je tercampak kt class laen.LOL.bwat vdeo same2 jgak.ko n key gado-ak tersekat tgh2.whoaaa!saket dowh tyme tu.hahaha.n den tyme basket,coincidently me,u n key were wearing the same jersey number-10.x ley bla dowh dat tyme!!ow yeah lupe,ko anak en.haizul.hahaha.chatey-lolipop.da sinonim.haha.then tyme f5,u have issue ngn HIM-ala u noe lah who.ak x nk tules kt cni.brpe lame ah korang cpl?den gado je dtg kt aku.hahaha.i dun mind pon.x pe2.f5,we do faced some probs.but we went thru it.n when school was over,kte g gig kt mlake.adoii!x ley bla doww.aku still jmpe bju ko kt shopping mall taw.LOL.<3

RY;my deskie yg plg baek!!-key pon x baek mne actually-u were alwez there for me..i ingat lg tyme f3,u salu kne mrh ngn pn juhani kn?hehe.we spent tyme tgther.then ingt x u,me n nana hngout kt midval.ngn ammr,n those 2 jerks.stupid!!tyme f3,we were dormmates.we had some issues dat year.haha.tuka2 bed lah ape lah..LOL.den kte kua lagi,i teman u jmpe fido.LOL.pe cte dye skrg ea?...those days~n ow yeah,luqman!!we went to watch sepi ryte??hahaha.dpt seats dpn tuh.n then ingat lagi kte rmai2 clbr8 bday u,chatt n pauww kt blkg mmr.BLAST!heh,u thot i mrh kt u kn dat tyme?u with ur bju kurung.hahaha.wut a day!kt class plak,evrytyme i offer food msty u ckp''nanti i amek".haha.durh!i noe u wont.dats y i ltak bwh ur desk tros.hee~ry,i luv u so much.tq fr everything u've done.

ROSE;indiemate!LOL.miss spendin tyme with u gurl..idk y but evrytyme ingt ko,msty ingt ikan keli doww!hahaha.was it f3 or f4 yg evrytyme recess we ate ikan keli??gile tol dat tyme!

naek f4,dats when amer came into the picture.it went perfect at fers,then evrything strted to rumble.hw cn i 4get?hahaha.lwk la wehh.u n "afiq"??LOL.roseaina toye!!naek f5 plak,ouff!clear view-tepi surau..hurmmm..nvm2.we learned a lot from wut hppened.ahaaa,ko gle pink!n barbie.aduh,x ley bla la ko neh.hahaha.ingt agi tyme g klcc for career day,u n ry amek gmba with the barbie nye poster tu kn??hahaha.n diz;u,me,ry n key g putra!!damn!miss gle those moments.stayed up the whole nyte.bley lak kene kejar n halau ngn polis sbb lpak kt bridge tuh.den kt mcd,sume org wt bnde yg embarassing kn??LOL.ak lak stuck ngn cikai dlm kete.dush2!......

SHUK;i noe i can depend on u the whole tyme.thnks for evrything.thnks for alwez taking care of me.kte g tournament silat tgther.toyolmate!!!u,me,chalym n nik!n den there was shudeq-bigfoot.adoyy!n ayim-stitch ko.tyme f4,lari the whole blok f cuz ak smbunyikan stitch ko.LOL.n then there were "abg" ko,n tah pape name jepun ko bg tah kt ckgu silat.haha.f5,blast!u were there for me the whole tyme..rmmber our song?let me take u there?hehe.n i can nvr forget tyme ko jage ak gstrik horror tuh.u n chalym were in my room.n those scary things hppened.nvm,bia kte 3 je taw wut hppen kn?hehe..thnx buddy...i owe u big tyme.

CHALYM;dorm8 tyme f1.hahaha.weh,ko ingat x ak n dibot pranked u bowt the sa note??n u really caye dat thing.siap bg choc lagi tuh!!hahaha!klaka la weh!n then ak tumpang bed ko n pauww evrynite cuz i scared tdo bed sndri-ade beddie x gune tyme tu.LOL.n tyme f2,we pretty much wat hal sndri je kn?x pe2.f3 dok 1 blok.dorm sblah2.lpak2 tgether lah gak.n f4,haha.miss bakaw!!!gle la wey...gmpak tol dok bakaw tyme tu.u thot me a lot of things chal.thnx..ko n shuk pn same.ske bebel kt aku bout mkn.hahaha.ok2 shoot me now.i noe it was my fault.hihi.i hope u will nvr give up in pursuing ur dreams just like u used to tell me dulu2,k?i noe u can.

FAHMI;known u the longest..since stndrd 3.we gado a lot tyme skola dulu.dude,normalla tu kn?n skali turned out our dad knows each other heh ank md noor?LOL.u r the sweetest guy i've ever met(huh,yeke?)..haha..rmmber x,i lied to u n apiss bowt me coming bck to u guys??LOL.x ley bla siot!!but ak x smpai aty nk tpu ko lame2.hehe.den kenekan apis.dush,x ley bla..we got closed,jd lak rumours.ngek tol!haha..n den u helped me tyme ade prob ngn fi3.awww,thnks syg!!but now??idk,idk,idk..things are not lyke it used to be...nvm.i still care n love u~

HERRY;teman bergosip aku.hahaha..dulu ko salu cte2 psl ko n...u noe lah who.n i tried my very best to help u guys.tp last2 it ended jgak.xpe2.nothing last forevr kn?n salu chat kt ym.hehe.declare bestie ea?haha.i gave a wallet for ur bday.ko gune smpan suet korang nye clothing line..ouh,then ade 1 conflict lak..hurmm..no comment bout dat.hope u guys worked it out k?i cn never lie to u kn bout mood aku??hahaha.thnx2

KIMIE;u r the person who changed a big part of my lyfe.funny thing is dulu tyme skola renda we never spoke to each other kn?we barely know each other..n now,heh..kite je phm kn??u r the most complicated of all my frens ynoe??u r the fers guy yg saw me crying in front of u..heh,hw cn i 4get dat day??n ouh yeah,in the monorail rmmber??hahaha..klaka laa..dude,i love u n dun u worry,wut u imagined the other day,it wont hppen...i'll b here as long as u need me..

AIMAN;chipsmore!!kjap ade kjap x de.but ynoe y u r in diz list??it is becos i APPRECI8 u..how cn i 4get wut u've done for me when i had a fight with my parents??i cn nvr 4get dat..thnk u,thnk u..n ouh yeah,i'm still waiting for ko nye demo lah sengal!!!i'll be waiting for u dear~

BAGAK;haha.u must be wondering y ur name is here kn?heh,u helped me a lot la weh.i cn never 4get dat.u r a gud listener.n i'm sori dat things doesnt worked out for u.just be patient.yeah,lyfe is unfair but He is fair to all of his servants..just pray~

AMER;u r such a pain in the ass!!huhu..but i put u here bcoz wut u did for rose..u make her happy.so i wanna thank u for dat..truth be told u r a gud fren..

so dats it for now.to those yg not in the list,i luv u guys jgak lah.dun wrry!hahaha...

p/s:I LOVE YOU

To begin with...

2009-03-06T21:26:00.000-08:00

Salam frenz n foes..so diz is my fers post..wait;let me laugh my ass off fers.hahaha.it took me a while to finally decided dat having a blog may ease my mind a bit i guess..LOL..so,i've been doing countdown to march 12th-a date dat has been in everybody's head-i mean to fivers 08 lah.SPM result.omg,omg,omg..i'm scared to death!!i knew i screwed up BIG tyme during the exam-its not a joke-...i keep on telling myself dat whatever hppens dat day,it is NOT the end of the world for me;yeah technically its true BUT how can i get it off my head so easy?wtv it is,i think i deserved larh pape pon based on my oh-so-called-effort.

oh,enuff bowt SPM.i passed my drvng test yesterday.LOL.at last!!all i can say is,yesterday's test was not the fers tyme.so korang phm2 sndri la k?but what i wanna tell u guys now is bout how lucky i am smlm..my tester tersgt2 lah baek!!God bless u sir!well,he's serious..x wat jokes or anything but dye mmg baek.no doubt.there was diz one part where i ALWEZ stuck during test-ONLY(i noe;i'm pathetic!).so ble almost smpai kat c2,there was a car too kat situ-n stuck jgak like i did-so my jpj nih ckp"potong je kete tuh"...i was like.."oh,ok2"..when i was about to stop the car to do the freaking aturan bukit wtv tuh,he said"x pyh2.jln je tros"..whoaaa!!!!i stopped breathing for a moment-gle shocked weyh!!but hey,am i stupid enuff to blow dat chance?of course lah x!then evrything went perfectly fine..ALHAMDULILLAH.thnk u GOd;thnk u...after dat,i decided;its payback tyme!hahaha..so i texted key..hehehe..key;ynoe wut hppen kn??when u called,i laughed my butt off fers b4 i answered..smpai HE-u noe who-ckp aku da sewel..i guess so!dats for messing wif me a day b4 when i was sleeping!LOL.no offense larh dear..hehehe..then after evrything da sttled,i went home..terbongkang atas bed for a few hours-pnat dowh!then ptg tuh mummy ajak tgk the pidato thingy at picc but i was too exhausted so i didn't go..at nite,abah suro tgk dat competition..there was diz contestant from china-pe tah name dye-she was really good!!she spoke fluently,well,it supposed to b dat way la kn?but my point is,she brought up some matter dat really got me thinking..i doubt dat our own malay generation;teens to b specificla..noe bout some of her points..she's really good..it occured to me if foreigners lyke her noes a lot about m'sia,we malaysian shud b ashamed of ourselves..look at current politics n issues ryte now..wth??i think now,evrything is about politics..wake up larh org melayu!gile kuase tol..x sedar tuh org laen tgh gelak kt org melayu ryte now..

b4 i stop writing,diz is a special dedication to my oh-so-called-bestie;dude,where r u??wut hppened to us??u dunno wut i went thru n i needed u the most.but u weren't there!!y??r u trying to avoid me??if u r,just say the word n i'll leave..i dun need ppl who dun need me..hear diz;i DO love u n i DO care bout u..but i guess it's never enuff for u..